So I actually had fun this weekend! I have "fun" every weekend because I consider not having to work or do anything annoying for money or a grade FUN but that would be what I consider "passive fun". I had "active fun" this weekend heading to a party on Saturday. Granted that caused a headache on Sunday, but nothing a couple multivitamins and some OJ couldn't alleviate.
Also I had the good fortune to have 60 bucks to blow and bought Fallout 3. I know I'm probably behind the curve but when the game came out I was too damn busy to spend the time warranted to justify the purchase I could, at that time, not afford. So yay for me, and it was worth it because Fallout 3 is effing awesome. So that pretty much sums up my weekend, yet I am being lazy.
What sucks about me being lazy is I usually eat poorly too. That doesn't bother me as much as I've been losing and gaining the same 5 pounds for a month now. Done with that crap for good. I have a schedule that allows me to work out EVERY day and I will in some form, whether it's just a run, or the tri-weekly muscular blowout followed by a nice protein shake. I'm determined to slim down not only for my wedding but primarily for the honeymoon. I've always been one to hesitate taking my shirt off. I'm not overweight in the least, just not trim or built in any way that I would like to be. So this is a mission for me and I know I'm dedicated enough to complete it.
On the wedding front, we're all set save the ring bearer and flower girl, who's families are taking too long for comfort deciding whether or not they can come to the wedding, which apparently didn't stop them from booking hotel rooms. But with that aside, everything's going according to plan.
THAT IS THE PROBLEM FOR ME! #***#*#*** Epiphany! sadfjweioaf CRAP! I'm excited!
I just realized why I fail or don't follow through on things!
Okay here it goes --- I HATE Routine. I hate Schedule. it is immensely helpful to my life, but I hate it. You know why? because it NEVER FUCKING ENDS. Straight up, that's my problem. I see my life as an endless string of monotonous routines to accomplish goals that will only be replaced by more goals and that I will never plateau or reach a point where I can stop worrying about those things and truly live, so I GIVE UP halfway though as a way of rebelling against the seemingly pointless routine that is my life! But the REAL PROBLEM is that I WANT to accomplish my goals, I want to finish things I want to better myself, I just overwhelm myself by over thinking and thinking way to far ahead, depressing myself for no particular reason because my future is what I make it, and I'm fucking it up by thinking I have no control therefore dooming myself to laziness and failure. NO MORE! I understand the challenge and problem and I can stop thinking that way because I know it's consequences far too well.
Wish me luck!
Monday, April 6, 2009
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Class Overcrowding and Dogme 95
Sitting in my 3rd of 4th First class this quarter. What amuses me is the professor says "And the required textbook is..." and I can simultaniously order it on Amazon and have next day delivery for 4 bucks! Thanks Amazon Prime! Also it saves me about $40 off the school's bookstore price.
Anyways; I'm in "Image, Optics, and Cinematic Motion" right now. Intriguing concept for a class, the first time out of the box for it, and it's being taught by a professor with a love of foul language and a thickly accented Swede, which makes for an amusing duo, guaranteed to please, even if the over-technical lecture bores you to tears.
Two professors is a bit unconventional, but it was originally 2 DIFFERENT sections of the same class, and apparently, both professors just didn't want to have to teach it separately so now I sit in a room with 60 people that's meant for 35. Luckily I arrived early and snagged one of the few remaining table seats, which I will now make it a point to do for the rest of what is my last quarter.
Tonight I have my Topics in Directing class for the first time, which apparently will primarily focus on the Dogme 95 movement, which is interesting in theory and brilliant yet sometimes disturbing and off putting in practice. Basically the doctrine of the now foregone movement requires filmmakers to abandon all creativity and simply try and depict the truth of their actor's performance, in an effort to make the most "realistic" films possible. So basically half the class periods will be spent watching movies that visually are no better than my first fumblings with a video camera and yet performance wise are some of the best works I've seen.
My other classes - Film Philosophy (another 65+ person class solely based on philosophical analysis papers on some of the greatest films of all time :-) ) and Special Effects and Compositing (which is a fun (and much needed) crash course in Adobe After Effects) should both be not terribly time consuming outside of class and stimulate a solid interest and dedication from me as I am thoroughly looking foward to the next (and 9th to last) week of my College Education.
Here we go....
Anyways; I'm in "Image, Optics, and Cinematic Motion" right now. Intriguing concept for a class, the first time out of the box for it, and it's being taught by a professor with a love of foul language and a thickly accented Swede, which makes for an amusing duo, guaranteed to please, even if the over-technical lecture bores you to tears.
Two professors is a bit unconventional, but it was originally 2 DIFFERENT sections of the same class, and apparently, both professors just didn't want to have to teach it separately so now I sit in a room with 60 people that's meant for 35. Luckily I arrived early and snagged one of the few remaining table seats, which I will now make it a point to do for the rest of what is my last quarter.
Tonight I have my Topics in Directing class for the first time, which apparently will primarily focus on the Dogme 95 movement, which is interesting in theory and brilliant yet sometimes disturbing and off putting in practice. Basically the doctrine of the now foregone movement requires filmmakers to abandon all creativity and simply try and depict the truth of their actor's performance, in an effort to make the most "realistic" films possible. So basically half the class periods will be spent watching movies that visually are no better than my first fumblings with a video camera and yet performance wise are some of the best works I've seen.
My other classes - Film Philosophy (another 65+ person class solely based on philosophical analysis papers on some of the greatest films of all time :-) ) and Special Effects and Compositing (which is a fun (and much needed) crash course in Adobe After Effects) should both be not terribly time consuming outside of class and stimulate a solid interest and dedication from me as I am thoroughly looking foward to the next (and 9th to last) week of my College Education.
Here we go....
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