So I actually had fun this weekend! I have "fun" every weekend because I consider not having to work or do anything annoying for money or a grade FUN but that would be what I consider "passive fun". I had "active fun" this weekend heading to a party on Saturday. Granted that caused a headache on Sunday, but nothing a couple multivitamins and some OJ couldn't alleviate.
Also I had the good fortune to have 60 bucks to blow and bought Fallout 3. I know I'm probably behind the curve but when the game came out I was too damn busy to spend the time warranted to justify the purchase I could, at that time, not afford. So yay for me, and it was worth it because Fallout 3 is effing awesome. So that pretty much sums up my weekend, yet I am being lazy.
What sucks about me being lazy is I usually eat poorly too. That doesn't bother me as much as I've been losing and gaining the same 5 pounds for a month now. Done with that crap for good. I have a schedule that allows me to work out EVERY day and I will in some form, whether it's just a run, or the tri-weekly muscular blowout followed by a nice protein shake. I'm determined to slim down not only for my wedding but primarily for the honeymoon. I've always been one to hesitate taking my shirt off. I'm not overweight in the least, just not trim or built in any way that I would like to be. So this is a mission for me and I know I'm dedicated enough to complete it.
On the wedding front, we're all set save the ring bearer and flower girl, who's families are taking too long for comfort deciding whether or not they can come to the wedding, which apparently didn't stop them from booking hotel rooms. But with that aside, everything's going according to plan.
THAT IS THE PROBLEM FOR ME! #***#*#*** Epiphany! sadfjweioaf CRAP! I'm excited!
I just realized why I fail or don't follow through on things!
Okay here it goes --- I HATE Routine. I hate Schedule. it is immensely helpful to my life, but I hate it. You know why? because it NEVER FUCKING ENDS. Straight up, that's my problem. I see my life as an endless string of monotonous routines to accomplish goals that will only be replaced by more goals and that I will never plateau or reach a point where I can stop worrying about those things and truly live, so I GIVE UP halfway though as a way of rebelling against the seemingly pointless routine that is my life! But the REAL PROBLEM is that I WANT to accomplish my goals, I want to finish things I want to better myself, I just overwhelm myself by over thinking and thinking way to far ahead, depressing myself for no particular reason because my future is what I make it, and I'm fucking it up by thinking I have no control therefore dooming myself to laziness and failure. NO MORE! I understand the challenge and problem and I can stop thinking that way because I know it's consequences far too well.
Wish me luck!
Monday, April 6, 2009
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Class Overcrowding and Dogme 95
Sitting in my 3rd of 4th First class this quarter. What amuses me is the professor says "And the required textbook is..." and I can simultaniously order it on Amazon and have next day delivery for 4 bucks! Thanks Amazon Prime! Also it saves me about $40 off the school's bookstore price.
Anyways; I'm in "Image, Optics, and Cinematic Motion" right now. Intriguing concept for a class, the first time out of the box for it, and it's being taught by a professor with a love of foul language and a thickly accented Swede, which makes for an amusing duo, guaranteed to please, even if the over-technical lecture bores you to tears.
Two professors is a bit unconventional, but it was originally 2 DIFFERENT sections of the same class, and apparently, both professors just didn't want to have to teach it separately so now I sit in a room with 60 people that's meant for 35. Luckily I arrived early and snagged one of the few remaining table seats, which I will now make it a point to do for the rest of what is my last quarter.
Tonight I have my Topics in Directing class for the first time, which apparently will primarily focus on the Dogme 95 movement, which is interesting in theory and brilliant yet sometimes disturbing and off putting in practice. Basically the doctrine of the now foregone movement requires filmmakers to abandon all creativity and simply try and depict the truth of their actor's performance, in an effort to make the most "realistic" films possible. So basically half the class periods will be spent watching movies that visually are no better than my first fumblings with a video camera and yet performance wise are some of the best works I've seen.
My other classes - Film Philosophy (another 65+ person class solely based on philosophical analysis papers on some of the greatest films of all time :-) ) and Special Effects and Compositing (which is a fun (and much needed) crash course in Adobe After Effects) should both be not terribly time consuming outside of class and stimulate a solid interest and dedication from me as I am thoroughly looking foward to the next (and 9th to last) week of my College Education.
Here we go....
Anyways; I'm in "Image, Optics, and Cinematic Motion" right now. Intriguing concept for a class, the first time out of the box for it, and it's being taught by a professor with a love of foul language and a thickly accented Swede, which makes for an amusing duo, guaranteed to please, even if the over-technical lecture bores you to tears.
Two professors is a bit unconventional, but it was originally 2 DIFFERENT sections of the same class, and apparently, both professors just didn't want to have to teach it separately so now I sit in a room with 60 people that's meant for 35. Luckily I arrived early and snagged one of the few remaining table seats, which I will now make it a point to do for the rest of what is my last quarter.
Tonight I have my Topics in Directing class for the first time, which apparently will primarily focus on the Dogme 95 movement, which is interesting in theory and brilliant yet sometimes disturbing and off putting in practice. Basically the doctrine of the now foregone movement requires filmmakers to abandon all creativity and simply try and depict the truth of their actor's performance, in an effort to make the most "realistic" films possible. So basically half the class periods will be spent watching movies that visually are no better than my first fumblings with a video camera and yet performance wise are some of the best works I've seen.
My other classes - Film Philosophy (another 65+ person class solely based on philosophical analysis papers on some of the greatest films of all time :-) ) and Special Effects and Compositing (which is a fun (and much needed) crash course in Adobe After Effects) should both be not terribly time consuming outside of class and stimulate a solid interest and dedication from me as I am thoroughly looking foward to the next (and 9th to last) week of my College Education.
Here we go....
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Back to Basics -aka Fun With Parentheses
So for the 4th time I've tried to start a multifaceted blog to amuse the general populous and for the 4th time I've given up; my heart just isn't in it.
It feels so damn insincere to blog like that. So without further adieu, FML and here comes the personal experience blog of a lifetime; STKCBlog- like all the other ones out there- except this one's mine dammit!
(oh and to Preface the blog (actually a Preface of the Preface (because up there is the first Preface))) (and I can't believe I kept all those parentheses straight)
I will be blogging in Trebuchet font from now on. I don't know if that matters, but it took me a whole 10 minutes to come to that decision so I thought I should share it.
Anyways, I'm actually back to classes today (for those of you playing the home game (and/or those of you who kept/keep track (or at least take the time to read previous posts)) I am a college student in Chicago pursuing a Bachelors degree in Digital Cinema (yes I know that's probably funny to you but I have been quite successful (and not just in stupid in class "film" projects))(and man I can't believe I've kept up with all these parentheses so far)).
I still work 5 days a week, but on a shorter schedule for the midweek, bookending my Work/School week with two 8 hour classless work days (which are actually quite enjoyable (yes I know you might not think the workweek is enjoyable (it's not called "The Daily Grind" for nothing) but I think only having to go to work for 8 hours and not go to night class after is quite a relief (and not having to take work home with me helps as well))).
I will be graduating in June, so this next 11 weeks will be my last in ANY School EVER! I can't wait to be done and have no intention of ever going back for grad school. I will just bust my ass and work my way up. 16 years of school is enough. I feel like my life hasn't even started yet, but I'm going to kick it in the ass in a few months: I'm Graduating from College and I'm getting Married the next month (yes, I know; 22 years old and getting married already. Heard it all before so shut it, lol).
This period in my life right now feels like Purgatory; I've made it out of the Hell that is Primary and Secondary education and almost completed College as I'm cruising towards graduation with support from family, friends and faculty, but I'm not to the Heaven that is a normal job, no homework, and increased financial wealth (because going from part-time to full-time will at least double my income (unFML)). But I think with only 11 weeks to go, the speed at which I live, and all the crap I have to do will keep me chugging along with only a few moments like this to reflect (or preflect (reflect on the future (it's probably not a word, but I'm starting a movement dammit!))) on what has and what is to come.
Soon enough I'll be out DePaul's doors and (to the delight of millions of nerds who will get this joke (the rest of you who don't just Google it)) saying "Hello World!"
It feels so damn insincere to blog like that. So without further adieu, FML and here comes the personal experience blog of a lifetime; STKCBlog- like all the other ones out there- except this one's mine dammit!
(oh and to Preface the blog (actually a Preface of the Preface (because up there is the first Preface))) (and I can't believe I kept all those parentheses straight)
I will be blogging in Trebuchet font from now on. I don't know if that matters, but it took me a whole 10 minutes to come to that decision so I thought I should share it.
Anyways, I'm actually back to classes today (for those of you playing the home game (and/or those of you who kept/keep track (or at least take the time to read previous posts)) I am a college student in Chicago pursuing a Bachelors degree in Digital Cinema (yes I know that's probably funny to you but I have been quite successful (and not just in stupid in class "film" projects))(and man I can't believe I've kept up with all these parentheses so far)).
I still work 5 days a week, but on a shorter schedule for the midweek, bookending my Work/School week with two 8 hour classless work days (which are actually quite enjoyable (yes I know you might not think the workweek is enjoyable (it's not called "The Daily Grind" for nothing) but I think only having to go to work for 8 hours and not go to night class after is quite a relief (and not having to take work home with me helps as well))).
I will be graduating in June, so this next 11 weeks will be my last in ANY School EVER! I can't wait to be done and have no intention of ever going back for grad school. I will just bust my ass and work my way up. 16 years of school is enough. I feel like my life hasn't even started yet, but I'm going to kick it in the ass in a few months: I'm Graduating from College and I'm getting Married the next month (yes, I know; 22 years old and getting married already. Heard it all before so shut it, lol).
This period in my life right now feels like Purgatory; I've made it out of the Hell that is Primary and Secondary education and almost completed College as I'm cruising towards graduation with support from family, friends and faculty, but I'm not to the Heaven that is a normal job, no homework, and increased financial wealth (because going from part-time to full-time will at least double my income (unFML)). But I think with only 11 weeks to go, the speed at which I live, and all the crap I have to do will keep me chugging along with only a few moments like this to reflect (or preflect (reflect on the future (it's probably not a word, but I'm starting a movement dammit!))) on what has and what is to come.
Soon enough I'll be out DePaul's doors and (to the delight of millions of nerds who will get this joke (the rest of you who don't just Google it)) saying "Hello World!"
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Good Morning Interwebs!
The World is safer now. Thanks, Tug: I owe you a biscut.
So welcome to Tuesday, or my Monday as it is, as I didn't work yesterday and barely did anything of value but eat, sleep, and watch Heroes, Lost and Scrubs. So today as I sit in my cubilce making a zillion phone calls and bored out of my mind, I sit scouring the internet for amusing items.
First up (if you don't count our good friend Tug up there) is the Folks at NASA.
Even though billions of dollars accidentally blow up (See Mars Rover Project Take 1 http://tinyurl.com/dbt4d4) They seem to have one hell of a sense of humor!
While I'm sure they could find a way to accidentally do this in a This-Would-Be-Funny-If-It-Wasn't-Happening-To-You manner, it appears they were actually referring to another Earth (see below)
[via Bits and Pieces http://tinyurl.com/cpvdwp]Secondly, and Thirdly to follow once my sense of humor wakes up and my boredom course-corrects.
--Matt
Friday, January 2, 2009
Well, back from snowboarding and I'm really sick.
I was sick when I first went, but dammit, I hadn't snowboarded in 3 years and I was going to sick or not sick.
Now I'm twice as sick as I was, but had a hell of a time. Going back to Chicago on Sunday is a welcome return home but I will miss AK. Now I will go spend my last two days with my family and enjoy the slower pace up here before diving into the mad rush that is Chi-Town..
I was sick when I first went, but dammit, I hadn't snowboarded in 3 years and I was going to sick or not sick.
Now I'm twice as sick as I was, but had a hell of a time. Going back to Chicago on Sunday is a welcome return home but I will miss AK. Now I will go spend my last two days with my family and enjoy the slower pace up here before diving into the mad rush that is Chi-Town..
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